__________Living In A World Of Confusions----------

Sunday, February 13, 2005

\Contemplation//

I'm dead-beat after days and days of late night gambling sessions.My luck doesn't seem to be that good this year,a reflection of this would be the meagre amount of my winnings.However within this few days I've realised things which I would never have thought of.Sometimes we just have to accept defeat gracefully and quit being a sore loser and real talent is often unveiled in the face of great peril and desperation.

I know everyone around me is expecting so much of me,the inclination to fulfill these expectations have led me to change my charater.Maybe I've got to be more callous.Be more unforgiving.To survive through all these power struggles I'll really have to start proving my worth.To become the strongest.To become the very best there ever will be.Rest assured I won't disappoint.

Within these few days I've found the solution to a long-standing problem.Maybe there really is no point in the endless pursuit of a lost cause for this would only further aggravate any damages incurred.Maybe it's just not meant to be by god's will.How foolish of me to be challenging the fate dealt out by god,but if I can turn back time I'll do it all over again.Perhaps I should just observe my surroundings and atart appreciating the efforts of people all around me.

I'm Confused|9:23 PM|

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