__________Living In A World Of Confusions----------

Thursday, December 23, 2004

\Remembrance//

The moment I opened my eyes was to the sound of my phone ringing...What I had dreaded had actually materialised!I was late for band.I know I had promised myself to not be late for band anymore,but I was really exhausted by my late night study sessions.I dun know what's wrong with me but I just studying way better in the dead of the night.

By the time I reached the school,it was past lunchtime and ended up sight-reading armenian dances yet again.True enough,I was really struggling with some of the faster parts.I really feel incompetent as a player and a band member.When we got sent out to practise on our own,I just feel that it was a message that the band can do without the clarinet section judging from the way we are playing.I'll answer those critics back by letting my music do the talking!

I know I'm not the ideal player and band member yet,but I'm really trying my best...

The BBQ at daniel's house was rather interesting cos instead of preparing the charcoal some of us ended up challenging some local residents to soccer.Our opponents happen to be from a spectrum of ages,including little kids who are rather cute with a height that only reaches my waist level.I was actually giving in alot to the little kids,by not tackling them when I should be,and not being too physical in my approach.I really felt so guilty when I made a tackle on one of the kids and sent him sprawling onto the field.Then everyone from my class was staring at me and I really felt a tinge of regret,for not holding back in my playing.

Somehow we managed to get ourselves some alcohol,thanks to deborah,were egging each other to try some of it.The one I bought was considered to be rather strong in its alcohol content and someone suggested it tasted like some tonic wine,due to its rather weird taste.

My class people really rocks!And for those who are leaving,I really hope that they will still be with us come next year,cos everyone will be sorely missed.A feeling of poignance currently resides in my heart...If I could turn back time,I'll treasure every moment spent with u guys...

I'm Confused|1:47 AM|

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