__________Living In A World Of Confusions----------

Saturday, November 13, 2004

\Depressed...//

Dragged myself to band today,expecting more or less the usual stuff,but things actually turned out to be too eventful a day for me.Hardly half the day had passed before I was being bombarded with a string of alien musical concept questions.Not surprisingly it sounded like Greek to me and my head is speaking in a different language.I guess there is so much a person could take before exploding...Dr Lee had walked out on us...Followed by a blasting session by the vice pres...Well, my SL broke down and started crying...ensued by the peroid of silence...I just sat there in a daze overwhelmed with guilt...I mean if someone has to be responsible for this poor attitude,then allow me to shoulder the blame...I have to admit that my level of commitment leaves much to be desired,and I should just show the amount of dedication expected of me instead of shirking responsibility...Cos there are too many people out there who are clearly innocent of this slanderous dressing down, people who have put in 100% effort in everything they do.I promise to stand up and be counted as we approach this competition,and display my true level of dedication in the future.I will never skip band ever again.This tongue lashing session has woken me up from my non-chalant ways,and I wont be as negligient as before cos I've lost too much time already.There's gonna be a great change in me.This I can assure you...Recently too many unfortunate things had happened, but I realised that loving a person doesn't necessary mean having her to yourself,but ensuring that her happiness is being of the utmost importance...Confusion also arises in the form of making a tough decision which would ultimately affect my entire life...God,please guide me out of this peroid of indecisiveness,by being the beacon leading out of this darkness...

I'm Confused|9:30 PM|

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